“Senscycle” “Senses” Original Artwork (Working) 2014-2018

Update: Title rename (let’s see how long this one sticks) combining Senses and Cycle. And also sounding reminiscent of the word “nonsensical” which is nearly always appropriate for me…

July 2018 – Submitted this beauty for a contest for the art magazine Beautiful Bizarre, but didn’t win ūüė¶¬† Did do a great amount of work on it to prep for submission but I still feel it’s unfinished and hopefully will continue to evolve and improve with my skills and abilities.

Started 7/5/2014 –¬†Dimensions: 20‚Ä≥ x 24‚Ä≥ – ‘live’ paint at a nightclub show in Akron. Evolved from a composite of two¬†separate concept sketches of mine (see below). Worked on in spurts and periods since it’s creation. I‚Äôd like to see it in a gallery one day, and make prints of it to sell once it‚Äôs finished. Acrylic, watercolor, ink, and collage bits of my own artworks made with copic marker, colored pencil, ink, graphite. Represents something of the intensity of senses, especially as an HSP and empath. Still not 100% on title (Senses).

Excerpt from original blog entry: “Working Title(s): On¬†Feeling in Flow¬† (I don‚Äôt know if it‚Äôll stay that, though‚Ķprofound titling can be difficult); perhaps I‚Äôll call it after myself: E/INFP-HSP (Briggs-Meyers personality type + highly-sensitive/empathic type person) since it‚Äôs certainly an¬†abstract composition of symbolic elements in¬†representation of visualized approximations of my inner churnings and burnings.”

(Below – original concept sketches)


(Below – early stages/ process photos of¬†artwork. First –¬†earliest photo; result after the live paint event in 2014. Second –¬†midway point of progress, likely mid-to late 2015).






2017. Watercolor background. Hand-carved octonaut (linoleum) printed onto page and gone over with shiny white acrylic. Octonaut concept from a sketch of mine done on a notecard back in 2013. Might make into a greeting card…Alternate name: “What do octopus see when they trip?” or “Acidpus”.

holly zezu artwork


“To Feel” – Original Artwork

“To Feel” – being an empath/creative type/highly sensitive person/INFP I go through a roller coaster of regular emotions quite frequently and feel things very intensely. This image conjures something of the beauty and chaos of this, I think. The weirdness also. It can be quite overwhelming and inspiring and certainly interesting with so much always floating around in my mind.

Started as a sketch in an art pad and over a great length of time, came to evolve slowly (probably over at least a few years) as I felt inspiration to work on it (among jillions of other artworks I also work sporadically on). Finally finished (or forced myself to accept as well enough) in 2016. First prints made for Etsy in 2017.

Materials: Copic Marker, Acrylic Paint, Ink, Colored Pencil, Permanent Marker

The original will likely never be sold since it’s certainly not archival and is actually layered over the same original art pad page. A LOT of layering and building up and correcting and experimenting.

Purchase a print:¬†“To Feel” Print Options from Crated.com

Tyranid Collage Poster

A gift for my brother’s birthday – his first 40k army was Tyranids, and I fondly remember sitting around with everyone and helping to paint them, watch battles, and take amusement in the lore/backstories and “flavor text” for the various factions. Since he is practical, his abode is thus sparse and could use an epic poster – especially one custom-made for him by his ‘delightful’ sister. So I gathered a bunch of images from online and among his books and collection and put together a collage in Photoshop, then had it printed and framed! Below is the poster image itself (minus mat and frame):


I painted a large wolf…

Well, larger than most other things I have custom painted up to this point. He was a Halloween decoration – plaster or something rather fragile-ish (bits of it sort of chip off the bottom sometimes). I painted him with acrylic paint (and holy crap did it take a lot longer than I anticipated…granted the ink shadowing didn’t work on him the way it does on the smaller figures so that set things back…) Hopefully making a plan AHEAD of time will speed things up in future endeavors – though I guess that won’t account for trial-and-error scraps of plans…Anyway I think he turned out rather well at this increment of decided completion, and I really like how his back details turned out with the paint shade layering for his fur. Also worth noting that being plaster or whatever and not a high quality material/expensive perfect statue, there was a lot of pitting and/or flaws to work around and try to mask with my painting work. But he’s quite lovely and I wouldn’t mind painting another something¬†large sometime.

On Recognizing Emotion Channeling and it’s effects on my Art

<<Painting above – early channeling art of mine, still as of now unfinished. A favorite of my dad’s>>

January 2016 – From my journal

I believe ‘swell’ and ‘surge’ to be the appropriate words to describe the sensation of such feeling that builds up, or is conjured by brilliant creativity, expression, emotion, or passion. Good or bad, focused or unruly and uncontrollable, it needs to leak somewhere – relieving, satisfying, like…channeling the energy of it, the emotion generated can be released. Feeling everything and passing it through me, not having to hold onto and manage the causes or reasons or meanings¬†(not having to keep them¬†inside of me as my own and try to prevent¬†warping or distortion, overwhelm, or the tainting of my other contents). An ironic concept to a “feeler”: keeping feelings objective. But it is in art and writing¬†and not many other aspects of life where I have been able to do just that; feel things without paying for their consequences, without fearing¬†to pursue their reality too far¬†and become overly immersed in a persona or position. Because feeling does not always equal truth or logic, and keeping objective allows the experience (like a strange high almost) to remain purely psychic, experimental, and¬†for experiences of a different kind than¬†those applied as¬†lessons in the¬†scope of one’s real life. Not actionable or intention-generating (which can, in my case, mean the devastation of well-being and spell misfortune for reasons not even properly founded, but just ill-channeled).

Whether or not they like or dislike the sensation, I think everyone should experience this at least once in their life. It is powerful, stirring, and can be enlightening, or damning…like watching brilliance,¬†dedicated endeavor of passion in action through the fails and the flights and to the final result that is more beautiful for the ‘blood cost’.

“Channeling” is something I am recognizing as a trend in my tendencies; picking up/feeling/sharing emotions, trying to control or soothe them, understand and interpret them (which is a lovely challenge, given the amount of variables and variability). And thus I often do not plan my creative outputs, and rather just…unleash what comes, and what I have been holding on to, editing what comes, shaping it and transforming not only the result but myself and understanding as well. These efforts are naturally influenced by my interests, passions, pleasures, curiosities, and attention span (as well as my artistic abilities) but I do try to keep things open to interpretation, impression, theory, projection, etc. so that viewers can mix themselves in as they look; fill in, question, try to understand. Let them learn as much or more about something in them or about themselves – as much, if not more, than they learn about me.

I imagine that if I can encourage and inspire this sort of conduit with my work Рlike a personal level mental/psychic collaboration for those moments, for those who really look to SEE, then it is like the work is never finished, never perfect, but always carrying further potential. It becomes new with every pair of eyes Рat least a little. Never dying, always changing, evolving, shaping, inspiring, and opening eyes and minds.


“Panda Prophecy” Hand carved/printed linoleum block

Above: Hand-printed on watercolor paper with Speedball water-based block-printing ink. Then hand-painted embellishments in gold acrylic and ink.


Below: Hand-printed, no embellishment, matted and framed.



Below: An earlier version of the carving printed on a textured cardstock.



Below: Hand-carved linoleum block for hand-printing. Carving date: April 2013. Tool: Speedball linoleum carving tool (with interchangeable carving blades of various sizes). This was one of the first lino carvings I made, and the result was quite different than the original in terms of the detail work due to errors and corrections in the carving process (of course I would pick a design heavy on the hardest element to carve well, circular designs and details). The design itself was adapted to fit and fill the size of the block itself.